And nothing here at home alone and I have much to do, in fact I do not have anything to do. Vacuuming and maybe I should replace some closet, if you really have to find something to do, but basically I have nothing to do. Today. Why then there are days when things are so many that do not even go back for lunch, tour and I'm very high and very low to very unnerving to me.
I decided to send the frog nursery, not to keep her locked in the house all day, because that is how it ends when it is cold and always raining. To have a reason to take her out, just to keep her with other children, to disengage it from the DVD of the Playhouse, not to see her play alone in her room to propose something different in at least part of the day.
I thought I had made a right choice, I thought I was ready. I thought. But obviously I thought wrong. I thought she liked being with other children, attend an environment created tailor-made for her. I thought he was ready to leave, but is not ready for anything, I think.
are no feelings of guilt for leaving her in tears kindergarten today, they're talking about. It 's a realization that I was up in my veins today. That basically all I need to send her to kindergarten do not have it. I'm here writing crap to your PC while you are there that I probably still crying. I could easily take care of her in the sea of \u200b\u200bnothing around me now.
I sang victory too soon. I was ready to feel drained to see her running in the classroom cheerful and happy as the first few days, but. The novelty effect is exceeded, the routine takes over and the time stretch.
Yesterday was the first day of the canteen and went to resume it at 3. Maybe a little 'time, I admit, I did not do a damn thing until three, but there is no alternative! On the blackboard next to his name was written: First Half - Second All - Fruits: Nothing. We say that could be better and maybe eat a little more. Maybe I'm too apprehensive, maybe I should let it go and wait for time to be teaching, but do not know.
So many things are crowding me in the head, starting to cry as soon as I put on my apron, and so continue until they come to class. I hold in my arms throughout the first half hour, does not want to get away from me for no reason, then starts to get a little bit and just goes away the right to not see me, flee like a thief. Full betray her trust, she thinks I am there, that is waiting to see what new play that is fetched and yet there are no more, I abandoned. For what? For venirmene here, home alone, brooding on a decision perhaps premature, wrapped in silence and write crap to your PC!
I know it passes, which must be decided, that there is no need to soften the hearts and everything but let me admit that I have a decision, a bit 'too hasty, lightly, for believing that you already know everything and I feel a bit selfish in that!
Ok, now I'm going to try something constrictive to do and stop thinking. Every action has consequences and this is a consequence that I had not expected, but that must somehow be addressed, strength and courage, this too will pass!
Song: Maria Mena - Just Hold Me
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